in-progress 7/24/08

Have you paid your dues as an artist?

What exactly does that mean even?

I don't think I will ever figure it out.

I have been raising my son by myself since he was 1 and a half.

Ask my family and they will say it has been since birth.
He is now five years old.
I find no remorse in hoping in the end I am recorded as a better father than artist by those most important to me.

I am a very good artist, as some would admit.

Art is easy for me.

Being a father is harder.

Being a good father is even harder than that.

Being the best father, the kind I think my son deserves, is easy.
Art and being a father are natural to me.
Art is my life.

Art is not a job or a career to me.
Being a father is my life.
Being a father is not a job to me.

I guess this might all sound silly to you.

Not to me.

...Maybe later.